The Struggle To Awaken

Some people say that no struggle is necessary in order to awaken. One especially hears this from the new and fast-growing crop of non-dual Zen and Advaita teachers, some of whom even offer Satsangs on the Internet.

Jean Klein

After several years of studying with Jean Klein, a true Advaita master, I appreciate how easily one can be misled by non-dual language into thinking that there is nothing to be done. The truth is, however, struggle is necessary at many levels.

The process of awakening involves far more than the mind, with all of its beautiful thoughts about non-duality; it also involves the emotions and body. We have to see, as Jean Klein frequently reminded us, that we are not our thoughts, emotions, and sensations. To see this, however, we need to realize that we are constantly lying to ourselves, both consciously and unconsciously. Jean helped us in this process, for example, not just with his illuminating and loving Satsangs, and with self-inquiry, but also with other meditative approaches, including a powerful form of esoteric yoga that helped us in an intimate way to experience our bodies more as energy and emptiness than as form and substance.

Here is a brief passage from a talk I gave some years ago that goes further into the question of lying:

“The struggle that we need to undertake is the struggle to see the way in which I constantly lie to myself. It is the struggle to be inwardly sincere. It is this seeing, a process that also requires the support of my body and feelings … that can free me from my habitual preoccupations, expectations, and beliefs—those powerful psychological states that keep me from experiencing myself and the world in the fullness of the present moment. But as anyone who has tried knows, the effort to be inwardly sincere brings with it suffering, real suffering, the immediate, painful experience of the many ways in which I cut myself off from the truth. This experience, as difficult as it is, also brings with it a great sense of freedom and joy, a sense of returning home from exile.” (From Awakening to the Miracle of Ordinary Life)

Copyright 2009-15 by Dennis Lewis

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Awakening: Two Perspectives

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Jean Klein, with whom I studied for three years.

“Awakening comes unexpectedly when you do not wait for it, when you live in not-knowing. Only then are you available.”–Jean Klein, Blossoms In Silence

My teacher John Pentland with Gurdjieff.

My teacher John Pentland with Gurdjieff.

“Awakening begins when a man realizes that he is going nowhere and does not know where to go.”–G.I Gurdjieff, from In Search of the Miraculous, by P.D. Ouspensky

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Sensing the Welcoming Presence

When we experience our breath at the deepest levels in ourselves, we are experiencing our own deepest identity. In the Old Testament we find, “And the Lord God formed man of the dust of the ground and breathed into his nostrils the breath of life; and man became a living soul” (Gen 2:7). In all the spiritual traditions we find chants, mantras, and sounds to bring us back into attunement with the cosmic symphony, a symphony in which each one of us is a note consisting of many harmonics.

Our breath, if we can but follow it inward as it flows through us in its many forms, beckons us toward the miracle and mystery of the silent, creative source of all life, the welcoming presence that we can sense when we look quietly within. Can you sense this presence now? Close your eyes and take a few minutes to experience this welcoming presence, this inner vibrant space and silence that includes within it everything that is happening without conflict.

Copyright 2009-15, by Dennis Lewis. This passage is taken from Breathe Into Being: Awakening to Who You Really Are

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Thinking In Absolutes Is Not Thinking At All

So many people like to think in absolutes–right or wrong, good or evil, all or nothing, positive or negative, everything is possible or nothing is possible, and so on. Do you know why? Because thinking in absolutes is not thinking at all; it is believing. And many people would much prefer to believe than to think.

Thinking is hard work. To think means to question, to ponder, to look honestly inside and out, to explore the different subtleties of levels and dimensions, to examine causes and effects, to explore the connections between things, to see from a larger perspective. Thinking is the primary way we humans have to look for the truth and adapt to what we discover.

To be sure, our feelings and sensations provide much of the material we need for thinking, as well as much of the energy we need to do so, but they are no substitute for thinking itself. Whereas sensation helps to anchor us energetically in the present moment, and feeling gives value to what we are experiencing, thinking, when it is impartial, lets us move beyond the constraints of the moment and helps throw light on the whole situation.

Copyright 2015 by Dennis Lewis 

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A Celebration Is In Order!

I’m still here on this beautiful planet, and so are you dear reader. Let’s celebrate our good fortune by actually being here with presence and appreciation. A good way to begin is to sense your breathing and realize that it connects you with everyone and everything that has ever lived or will ever live on this planet. If you wish to use your imagination in a positive way, try visualizing the atoms of air present here and now (10 to the 22nd atoms in each breath you take) as a bridge, a flow, of energy from the past present through the present present into the future present. Yes, a celebration is in order!

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Thinking, Associating, Inner Freedom

If you don’t wish to think, I understand. Sometimes I feel that way, too. Thinking is hard work. Among other things, it requires an aim, focused energy, and perseverance. But please don’t confuse thinking with associating. Associating, which can on occasion bring creative insights, is often simply a distraction from thinking. A mind that is at the mercy of associations, however creative they might appear to be, is sometimes called a “monkey mind” or a “gossipy mind.” When you are quieter inside and can resist saying “I” to them, you can see these associations more clearly for what they are: mechanical movements of words, images, and other mental forms that have little, if anything, to do with actual thinking. Being present to these movements is the beginning of inner freedom.

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“I Work With What I’ve Got”

Lord John PentlandIn complaining once to Lord Pentland, whom Gurdjieff put in charge of The Gurdjieff Work in America, about some group leaders in the Gurdjieff Foundation (San Francisco) where I had been studying for a few years, he responded tersely but with a smile: “I work with what I’ve got.” Shortly thereafter he made me a group leader, which over many years and often with great inner suffering demonstrated to me some of the many dimensions of what he meant.

Today, almost all of those who were with Gurdjieff, whom I will call here ‘The Old Ones,’ have passed on. I, like so many others, miss The Old Ones, especially those with whom I worked to varying degrees. That is human nature. And yet, those, like me, who were with Lord Pentland and the other Old Ones must recognize, if the help we received means anything at all, that we are now “the old ones,” whether or not we stayed with a genuine Gurdjieffian organization (I did not). And there is a huge responsibility that goes with that recognition.

Some recognize the full implications of this, of course, and some don’t. Some imagine that results will appear some day in the future if they just keep doing the work that was given in the old days by The Old Ones. Others realize they need to rediscover in their own being and in their own way the ever-renewed work of awakening for themselves right now, taking advantage of all that they learned and actually understood with the help of The Old Ones, while at the same time calling upon their own inner resources, explorations, and discoveries to move forward.

Finally, then, those to whom awakening from sleep is foremost in their lives realize that they must work with what they’ve got. That’s really our only choice no matter whom we claim as our teachers. And we all have far, far more than we imagine. We just need the courage to see and welcome, without self-deception, the living truth as it actually appears in our lives, not as we think or believe it should be. This is not easy, but it’s the only authentic choice we have.

Copyright 2015 by Dennis Lewis

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Experiments In Conscious Living

Dennis Lewis

Dennis Lewis

The exercises and practices I offer on this website are experiments in conscious living. Many of them derive from my explorations in the Gurdjieff Work, Taoism, and Advaita over the past 50 years. Others come from my investigation over the past 30 years of natural breathing, qigong, and energy work and their relationships to health, well-being, and consciousness. Still others arise from my creative experiments in presence and consciousness. Take them or leave them, but if you wish to understand and benefit from them you have to actually engage with them in the context of your own wish for a more-conscious life.

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Lord Have Murphy: Waking Up In the Spiritual Marketplace

Lord Have MurphyFran Shaw recently sent me a hard copy of this marvelous book. We read some passages from the book in a recent Sunday group meeting, and everyone loved it. It helped open, in funny and unusual ways, many deep questions about the meaning and power of attention in the process of awakening. The book includes more than 40 amazing drawings by Bruce M. Sherman.

“We hear a lot these days about mindfulness. ‘Weapons of mass instruction are proliferating.’ How to clear the air? To trust what’s in us and that we’re finding our way to it. With unrelenting humor, Murphy gives it a try, only to discover in himself an extraordinary truth: that contact with the finer energy animating us awakens us to a completely different level of being alive.” (From the Amazon write up)

“Fran Shaw is the author of multiple non-best-sellers and a professor of philosophistry at Thereisno U.” (From the jacket cover).

I recommend that you only get Lord Have Murphy if you’re willing to laugh (especially at yourself)!

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The Health Benefits of Humming

The Health Benefits of Humming

Includes some research on how humming may be able to help with upper respiratory infections. Just click on the photo:

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Expanding Our Narrow Sense of Ourselves

“The process of breathing is a living metaphor for understanding how to expand our narrow sense of ourselves and be present not just to the miraculous energies of life that are both in and around us but also to the deep silence and spaciousness out of which these energies arise. By checking in on your breathing, by noticing all the inner and outer movements of your breath as they take place, you are actually getting in touch with a deeper, more-conscious dimension of your own being. …”–Dennis Lewis, Read the entire article/practice!

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Gurdjieff: Payment

G. I. Gurdjieff“Man never on any account wants to pay for anything; and above all he does not want to pay for what is most important for him. You now know that everything must be paid for and that it must be paid for in proportion to what is received. But usually a man thinks to the contrary. For trifles, for things that are perfectly useless to him, he will pay anything. But for something important, never. This must come to him of itself.”–G. I. Gurdjieff, from In Search of the Miraculous, by P. D. Ouspensky

“This is especially true today, when so many people, influenced by the Internet, believe that everything, even music and books, should be free, that somehow they ‘deserve’ them.”–Dennis Lewis

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